You know…sometimes I get in the way of my own self. I know I mentioned before that I will not allow myself to get so busy that I forget to praise God. Welp, guess what? I have been so busy focused on everything else, but….you guessed it! I was totally convicted on my way to work this morning. I was praising and worshiping and was having myself a good ole time. I then thought back to where I was just a few years ago. God delivered me from self pity, depression, anxiety…the whole nine yards. I had to take a moment right there and thank Him for taking me out of that mess.
I always said that I never knew what God’s calling over my life was until recently. Just last night, a young lady from my church called me to just express what she was going through. She needed a mentor to help guide her with her decisions and I was able to be just that. We laughed and cried together…and it just helped to verify that I am walking in God’s purpose. A few months ago, I had another young lady call me to ask for advice and to pray for her and her failing marriage. Those aren’t the only instances in which I am being asked for advice, but those instances made me realize that God’s using my mess and my pain that I experienced to help others push through their pain for healing.
Psalm 30:5 tells use that “Weeping may terry for the night, but joy comes in the morning”. I remember going through a rough patch in my life where I didn’t even want to get out of bed. I knew that if I slept my life away, I wouldn’t have to deal with the reality of life. The pain that I was experiencing at that particular time was just too much to bear and I didn’t want to have to deal with it anymore. I’ve been there. I’ve done that. I know that God is real because He saved me. He told me that I was His daughter…the daughter of the Most High…the daughter of a King. That is when He turned my weeping into joy. However, it took that breakthrough for me to realize that the enemy was only using my pain, anger, depression, anxiety to cause a hindrance in my life. The enemy knew that if God got a hold of me, there’d be no stopping me. Thank you God for saving me from myself.
Sometimes we all need to just pause and thank God. I enjoyed my praise session this morning because it enabled me to just reflect and for that, I am thankful. For the rest of my morning, I will have this song on repeat. “Trust In You” by Anthony Brown & group therAPy:
You did not create me to worry
You did not create me to fear
But You created me to worship daily
So Ima leave it all right here
My hands are raised because I surrender
Your will is what’s best for me
I worship You because You’re Jehovah Jireh
I bow before the King of Kings
No more crying no more complaining
I believe Your word is true
Lord You promised never to leave me lonely
So this is what I’m going to do
I will trust in You Lord
I will trust in You Lord
I will put my trust in You
I hope that you all enjoy the Thanksgiving holiday that is quickly approaching us. Take time to give thanks. There will be many who will be without family during this holiday, so say a quick prayer for them that they may find comfort wherever they are. “You will be enriched in every way to be generous in every way, which through us will produce thanksgiving to God. For the ministry of this service is not only supplying the needs of the saints but is also overflowing in may thanksgivings to God” (2 Corinthians 9:11-12).
Back to Raising. XOXO.