Tuesday is my least favorite day of the week. I am always just so tired when I wake up because I haven’t fully recovered from the night before (who am I kidding? I haven’t fully recovered since I’ve had kids, HA)! Anyway, I’m just always tired and Tuesdays contribute even more to my sleepiness. My question is, why does Tuesday have to be a day? Why can’t we go from Monday to Wednesday and just skip Tuesday?
There are three reasons why I dislike Tuesdays so much.
- I am tired.
- I am tired.
- I am tired.
Each night, I tell myself that I am going to go to bed earlier, but I never do. Jovi fell asleep around 830 last night and Hendrix fell asleep around 930. Afterwards, Travis and I stayed up talking well into midnight. What were we even talking about? Well, we were discussing how September 15 marks our 12 year dating anniversary. I attempted to get Travis to recite a favorite memory from each year that we were dating…starting back in 2005. He said heck no because that would take way too long and we proceeded to talk about something else. What? I have no clue because I kept dozing off and would wake up every time he would ask me a question. Eventually, I had to tell Travis that I was too tired to talk and we could continue our conversation in the morning! We cosleep with the boys in our bed so sometimes it’s hard to have a meaningful conversation without waking them up. Hey, you gotta get in where you fit in sometimes!
Travis and I both wake up at 5am to shower, eat breakfast, get the boys ready for daycare, etc. Well, let me rephrase that, Travis wakes up at 5 and I usually hit the snooze button until I hear him get out of the shower – and then I hop up and rush to get ready so that we aren’t late getting out of the house and starting our day. As I hopped in the shower this morning, I realized that God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called (Hebrews 13:21). Yeah, yeah…sounds good, but what I am called to do? What is my calling?
As you may or may not recall…last week, I wrote about being still and just shifting my focus. Since then, I have started to see increase in my life. Whether it be the start of a wonderful conversation that left me in awe or just great advice, I have been seeing increase ever since. I love being a loner and sheltering myself in a bubble with Travis and the boys, but I have noticed that I can’t help others if I can’t be transparent and put myself out there. I remember writing a post on Facebook a few years ago just being as transparent as can be…airing out all of my dirty laundry.. and would you know that I had so many messages in my inbox regarding that post? People could relate to what I went through and they were asking little old me for advice! What? Asking me for advice? You’re seeking advice from me of all people? So perhaps that is what my calling is, to help others. Although I am not sure right now at this very moment, I am going to continue to spend time in prayer and just ask what is it actually that He wants me to do.
Although I woke up dreading that today is only Tuesday, something good came out of today only being Tuesday. I was able to realize that I do have a calling over my life (John 15:16) and as I shift my time to focus more on God, I can also focus on what and who He has called me to be.
I hope that you all have a wonderful Tuesday evening. We usually do Taco Tuesdays, but we are switching it up in the Williams household tonight – we are making spaghetti with homemade tomato/basil sauce. I got the sauce recipe from a friend, Maggie. Please check her out here. The sauce is to die for and it is the only way that Travis will eat spaghetti now. Of course, Hendrix loves spaghetti so I know he is going to be excited when he sees his plate. I might even let Jov man get a taste. He is about to be 6 months and I am leaning more towards Baby Led Weaning (BLW). I will have to do a little more research on this one so we shall see!
Back to Raising. XOXO.